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Hello, I'm Jocelyn, and I'm supremely excited to have a new steady job as a writer/editor for an online travel magazine! Being completely at the other side of the communications fence has been the most fun I have had working in a long time.

I just wish I could work from home instead of going to an office, but hey, at least someone is doing my accounting and computing my tax returns because I still don't get how this godforsaken Philippine government does it (they make sure you as the payer gets screwed over).

If you're looking for me, I'm Jocelyn on www.traveldailymedia.com. Please watch out for uncut/uncensored/alternate versions of my Travel Daily articles on this blog. ^.~v

So what else has been going on with me? Check the cut. 

This job literally could not have come at a better time. I have begun hating the career I once loved (marketing and public relations). I used to enjoy facing clients, but after committing so many missteps I think I need to take a step back and reassess what my skills actually are. 

The interests I used to have, have now changed considerably; many of them I have done away with altogether. I definitely no longer enjoy facing people. I may still like events, but to be honest, holding them takes so much time and effort, and it's all very tiring. 

I need to work through some learned behaviours and coping mechanisms that have made it more difficult for me to keep on trucking at work. This mostly means cutting back on my social media addiction, which is tough because I've gotten paid to go on social media for most of my career, plus all my family and friends are on it. And if there is one thing that is both boon and bane of my existence, it is that I am incredibly, stupendously self-aware but also incredibly, stupendously impotent to fix it, and not for lack of trying mind you. 

And honestly, real talk: everyone who says "all it takes to fix it is discipline" can go f**k themselves over. If it were that easy to create and maintain that discipline, I would have already fixed it. If life didn't always like screwing even the most disciplined of people, then I would have already fixed it.

Hopefully, this time around, it all works out. Fingers crossed.